Soon my time here at home will come to an end and I go to India again.
The air is fresh and clean. The water taste like heaven, yet in a few weeks I go to one of the dirtiest cities in the world-New Delhi.
Does it scare me to fly away again? Yes. But not in the way my families think. I am not afriad to get into trubble. I have luck and many Spirits to protect me.
It scares me because sometimes I doubt myself and my way of lifestyle. Doubt is something that hits me know and then. For sure it is safe and warm and comforting to stay here in Skellefteå and find work and friends and something to do all day. But every time I try to stay here for longer period I get bored. Not with the city but with myself. I get into rutine and even dough I know what I want in my life, I get into a rutine that gets my mind to wander of.
The real doubt is, when I move back to this city, will I keep on believing on my meaning of life, my purpose?
My faith is something I need to keep safe and close to my heart.
It is the very most important thing, to never lose faith in oneself and ones ideas.
What I really want is a change in my life and in the world. And how I will work towards that?
I will inspire myslef to be able to inspire other people.
when I travel many people tell me I am lucky to have that oppurtunity and that is true.
I am very lucky. But because I chose to. I know I grow and change the most when I am out there and not in my daily routine. Everyone can do what I am doing. we just have to what we really feel like. Even dough it scares us, tests us and takes us on new paths.
I must say I wish a balance. To live country-swedish-nordic life and to live nomad-bohemian-hippie life.
My wish is to have great travels in the world and calm relaxing, reflecting life back here at home.
Adventure and spontaneity versus coming home, work and inspire the poeple of the north.
I love my relatives and they make me smile. I love my friends here. I don´t have many here but enough to create something here.
I do want that life soon. A home to come back to. Something to build on to. A place to welcome people to.
God I wish this in my life.
But first, lets get myself to become a tantra teacher. I will do my best for the healing on this planet. Tantra is my way, it is what really inspire me and makes me curios.
Thanks again GOD and Spirit, Thank you for the oneness and the love!!
It scares me because sometimes I doubt myself and my way of lifestyle. Doubt is something that hits me know and then. For sure it is safe and warm and comforting to stay here in Skellefteå and find work and friends and something to do all day. But every time I try to stay here for longer period I get bored. Not with the city but with myself. I get into rutine and even dough I know what I want in my life, I get into a rutine that gets my mind to wander of.
The real doubt is, when I move back to this city, will I keep on believing on my meaning of life, my purpose?
My faith is something I need to keep safe and close to my heart.
It is the very most important thing, to never lose faith in oneself and ones ideas.
What I really want is a change in my life and in the world. And how I will work towards that?
I will inspire myslef to be able to inspire other people.
when I travel many people tell me I am lucky to have that oppurtunity and that is true.
I am very lucky. But because I chose to. I know I grow and change the most when I am out there and not in my daily routine. Everyone can do what I am doing. we just have to what we really feel like. Even dough it scares us, tests us and takes us on new paths.
I must say I wish a balance. To live country-swedish-nordic life and to live nomad-bohemian-hippie life.
My wish is to have great travels in the world and calm relaxing, reflecting life back here at home.
Adventure and spontaneity versus coming home, work and inspire the poeple of the north.
I love my relatives and they make me smile. I love my friends here. I don´t have many here but enough to create something here.
I do want that life soon. A home to come back to. Something to build on to. A place to welcome people to.
God I wish this in my life.
But first, lets get myself to become a tantra teacher. I will do my best for the healing on this planet. Tantra is my way, it is what really inspire me and makes me curios.
Thanks again GOD and Spirit, Thank you for the oneness and the love!!
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